hands full

wish list

It is the time of the year again...

The season is coming..to feel cold and warm at the same time...dreaming...

dreaming free...

At dahil libre mangarap...here goes..

The things I can live without!!! But I 'want' to live with!!! Why not!!

 1) the canon g12..time to change the camera with this awesomeness!

 

 2) slingshot drama 2009...haaay i've been dreaming about your for 2 years now!!!

3) deluxe edition of 'this is war' album by 30 seconds to mars! one of the best band ever!!

4) organ (electric piano) and learn how to play music again

5) I would like a black or red Swatch Gent...errr...can I have them all???

6) i want a tattoo like bill kaulitz of tokio hotel!!!

his is written: we never stop screaming (straight) & we go back to the roots (wrap around)

mine will be: through Him who gives me strength (straight) & i can do all things (wrap around)

Simple thoughts and wishes!!

Santa?? where are you-hooo???

weekend in rawa

I have never appreciated a beach besides my Country's own...

But discovering Rawa Island in Malaysia...I say... serene paradise ;)

the sand and water

the sky..

the food!!!

the accommodation...

and
the company...

I so love...

See you again Rawa Island

heights

i conquer my fear every given day..

sedate your hesitation

The time has passed for hand-me-downs,

choose a new, please evolve, take flight.

                                - Brandon Boyd
                      Incubus

closing cycle by paolo coehlo

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/

message fail 1

I found an unfinished letter...
(excerpt from an unfinished memoir)

(April 2009)

What now? It has been a year or so…for me, it feels like a decade since the last time I opened this piece. I read it once in a while you know, just to motivate myself to write again. But then…the words aren’t there to fill it up, or yet, the person isn’t there to continue the story.

Now I ask again…what now?

Too many things happened, too many hours spent, words spoken, people encountered, feelings shared, actions done… a lot came and a lot lost. Now I think of what to tell you. Where was I? What happened? My dear xxxxxxx, I was here. Always, never have I gone, never have I left. I just took my break and found someone to talk to. I guess, I just had my breakthrough, I tried connecting. And love, here I am, come and listen. I need you to understand.

I don’t really know exactly what happened, but along the way in my reiterated life, there was a fork on the road and a decision was made. Whatever road I took, no plans of taking the way back, I went straight and continued going forward. And yet again, changes were like a shock of the lightning that hit me down the spot.

xxxxxxx, I realized I was running on circles again. It was like going on a day trip to an empty open field. I was out there, doing what I knew was rational for me, exposed but then again in total disguised. Waiting for something to haul me away and make something superbly unbelievable out of me. Probably that was the reason why I turned suddenly in topsy-turvy. I wanted something different, something raw, something that would blow my mind away from my sickening lonely self.

Along the way, I found answers and at one point I found bits and pieces of my real self.
.....

and the letter stops there...what happened next?? I guess, we'll never know, unless there are more letters waiting to be discovered...
until I try to look for long lost letters.
Unsent. Unread.
until then.

Surviving Singapore

How to have a cheaper stress-free out-of-the-country trip?

Lemme introduce you to the wisest backpacker I know...

meet Eys,

ang 'Turistang P(a)la(y)boy'...

Lesson 1: Don't bring much stuff. Just be sure you have your comfy shirt,pants and shoes. You don't need to bring things that you think are available to borrow at the place. It saves space and weight..

Mr. Wise just looks like he's going out for a match.

Lesson 2: If you are eating out with someone, might as well, pick the best food served in big amount and share :)

$6 japanese meal + extra rice... Then 'the Big Gulp' of Coke at 7-eleven! solve!!

Lesson 3: if you don't have budget for luxury, then unleashed the cowboy in you and be flexible.

the bisita working

 for food and shelter... and wi-fi!!:)

Lesson 4: walk your way to the best places..

 better to feel the city and save EZ-link load.

Lesson 5: know your budget..sometimes you don't need to spend to go see new things...

learn how to improvise..

 encounter with the lion somewhere in Clark Quay MRT Station..

 enjoyed the birds at Harbourfront Station

looked for books at Food Republic in Suntec

Lesson 6: and spend your money for the cooler things instead!!

a day trip to Universal Studios &

another day trip to Batam Cable Park @ Indonesia

Lesson 7: Be sure to have a souvenir...

Result: Take home a smile and awesome memories from your adventure!!!

tummy break

so let's talk about FOOD!!

goin to 4 years in SIN City...one of the best pastimes to enjoy is...food trippin'!

lemme suggest where to go and what to eat..

fresh and exciting...cook your meal at Pepper Lunch

 heavy but oh so quick and cheap!!! Tomato is the place to be :)

 perfect for group dineout...celebrate at Marche'...

they cook whatever you pick!!

need comfort food??

any sushi from Sakae Sushi or Nihon Mura

something new...

try the Chicken Briyani at Arab Street

something local...

drool over the shrimp dumpling at Food Republic

and for safe food...

who doesn't trust

McDo!!

yumminess!!!

(i read from somewhere)... never waste your calories on crappy food...

and so...eat, eat, eat and be happy!! :)

workboard or wakeboard?

how to concentrate @ work when my view is far more interesting?

my work makes me want to dream bigger...away..

far far away..

define me

you can never be alone... when you can define 'friend'

september girl

dear ate..

i have never written you a letter..right?
(well except for the usual greeting cards and quick memos)

today, i take time...

thanks :)

For being my evil sister back when we were kids. You have been my major torture (and you know this fact)you took the time of your life pulling off the ate role and bossing me around..i can never forget how you tell me to buy 1 liter of coke at the store under the scorching sun and Ang TV on the tube.. You knew I could not say no, not because I was scared of you, but I wanted Coke too (hehehe)

thanks..
for introducing me to real music. I've discovered U2, Sting, Oasis, Silverchair, Robbie Williams, and MTV with you. for discovering Hollywood and all its glamour... I've met Robert de Niro, Jack Nicholson, Leonardo de Caprio, Jared Leto, Corin Nemec, Keanu Reeves like hundred years ago..you are my walking showbiz magazine.

from Jason Webb and Elmer Lago days of UAAP..we were screaming like hell jumping on the bed watchin them do basketball. to Sean Chambers and the Alaska team of PBA..you screamed louder.

from Sweet Dreams collection to Judith McNaught novels and all the fascinating treats of reading. I have opened one of your books and discovered literature.

for the youth you've enjoyed,
I have been interested in college and independence to lead mine like yours.

for the beer and any alcoholic drinks we could extremely enduce...i leave the title to you :)


too many things...too many still to come.

thanks ate...

happy birthday!!!

3.1 decades ain't that bad..life has just begun.

love you ;)

lost and found

I am currently overwhelmed with gladness right now.

Why?? first lemme tell you a story....(zzzzzzzzz...)

anyway...

2 Mondays ago, I couldn't help myself to open my eyes, stand, and drag myself to work..I wasn't feeling so good...well, of working that one fine Monday. Yes, it could've been a plotted sick leave, subconsciously...So.. I stayed home, and enjoyed my day in bed. But being absent at work due to sickness had a  'one pain in the a**' deal, I needed to show a medical certificate from a doctor. bleh! By lunch, I was on the way to the clinic, ran to catch my bus, paid with coins...went up the upper deck, sat and realized I dropped and lost my IC within that few seconds..damn!! agh!! panic! irritation!! and quick karma!!

Question: What is IC??  Answer: Identification Card??

From where I am, IC is the bling!! Being a foreigner in SIN City, IC is like the VIP access. Anywhere you go, anything you do, it gives you a sense of safety and confidence.. As if no one can touch you! As if you can never go wrong! As if it will set you free..or better yet it can simply save your a**.
And I lost it! NOOOOOO!!!

OA! As if I couldn't have one again... I could replace it..yes..but for 100 bucks, which makes me more worst, because I don't have any. No money is available for this kind of stupidity..Someone (who is) financially challenged, is prohibited to act stupid at all times. That is my motto.

An hour ago, I went off  work and straight to ICA, where you can deal with immigration, travel documents and other stuff connected to it. I was ready to act on my recklessness that will cost me time and my 100 bucks. Then it all happened, the woman on the counter told me to check if my IC was on the Lost and Found first before applying for a replacement, surprisingly, my hope was uplifted, I went and inquired. The auntie behind the desk asked me to wait, I sat and watched her work on the computer and even called someone. Then I heard her voicing out my number and said words like..turn-over! Ack!! I was praying so hard right until she called out trying to pronounced my name.

There it was...my bling!

There was a God-sent angel who took time to bring it back to ICA. I have never expected to see it again 2 weeks after. Thank you...thank you...thank you!!!

Just a thought...

One of the few things that came to mind, if I was in the Philippines, would I even try to hope for someone to return it if found?? Too bad the answer is no, not that I don't trust my fellow countrymen, the person who found and brought back my IC card might have been a Filipino after all, right? It's not about the thought that people there don't care about a piece of Identification Card and it's importance to someone. It is also the fact that there is not enough procedure on what to do, or where to go if you found or lost one. And who will provide for that procedure? Who will inform the people on what to do?

My point...

I just happened to be in a place where people in all nationality is disciplined to follow as being guided by Authority. It's not about a reason that people back home have no sense or manner to be ruled, it is the matter of just Governance. The herd of sheep always depend on the Sheperd.

How did this story end with a political opinion?? Malay ko rin..nyehehe..

Seriously...

We need leaders who we can trust to govern us. I was ecstatic getting back my IC, but I couldn't help but wish, I was at the other part of the world that time, I wished I was home, thanking my government and people for doing a simple but wonderful job.

Now, I'm thanking my second home, for keeping me. I am blessed to be here.

joy is a conquest

 

more on Paolo Coehlo's blog

faith

an excerpt from Streams of the Desert...one of my favorite books.

We do not know what we ought to pray for. Romans 8:26

Often it is simply the answers to our prayers that cause many of the difficulties in the Christian life. We pray for patience and our Father sends demanding people our way who test us to the limit, "because, suffering produces perseverance" (Romans 5:3). We pray for a submissive spirit, and God sends suffering again, for we learn to be obedient in the same way Christ "learned obedience from what he suffered" (Hebrew 5:8)

We pray to be unselfish, and God gives us opportunities to sacrifice by placing other people's needs first and by laying down our lives for other believers. We pray for strenght and humility, an "a messenger of Satan" (2 Corintinans 12:7) comes to torment us until we lie on the ground pleading for it to be withdrawn.

We pray to the Lord, as His apostles did, saying, "Increase out fly away; our children become critically ill; an employee comes upon us, requiring more faith than we have ever before experienced.

We pray for a Christlike life that exhibits the humility of a lamb. Then we are asked to perform some lowly task, or we are unjustly accused and given no opportunity to explain, for "he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and... did not open his mouth" (Isaiah 53:7).

We pray for getleness and quickly face a storm of temptation to be harsh and irritable. We pray for quietness, and suddenly every nerve is stressed to its limit with tremendous tension so that we may learn that when He sends His peace, no one can disturb it.

We pray for love for others, and God sends unique suffering by sending people our way who are difficult to love and who say things that get on our nerves and tear at our heart. He does this because
"love is patient, love is kind.... It is not rude,...it is not easily angered...It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." (1 Corinthians 13:4-5,7-8).

Yes, we pray to be like Jesus, and God's answer is: "I have tested you in the furnace of affliction" (Isaiah 48:10); "Will your courage endure or your hands be strong?" (Ezekiel 22:14); "Can you drink the cup?" (Matthew 20:22)

The way to peace and victory is to accept every circumstance and every trial as being straight from the hand of our loving Father; to live "with him in the heavenly realms" (Ephesians 2:6), above the clouds, in the very presence of His throne; and to look down from glory on our circumstances as being lovingly and divinely appointed.

I prayed for strength, and then I lost awhile

all sens of nearness, human and divine;

The love I leaned on failed an pierced my heart,

The hands I clung to loosed themselves from mins;

But while I swayed, weak, trembling, and alone,

The everlasting arms upheld my own.

I prayed for light; the sun went down in clouds,

The moon was darkened by a misty doubt,

The stars of heaven were dimmed by earthly fears,

And all my little candle flames burned out;

But while I sat in shadow, wrapped in night,

The face of Christ made all the darkness bright.

I prayed for peace, and dreamed of restful ease,

A slumber free from pain, a hushed repose;

Above my head the skies were black with strom,

And fiercer grew the onslaught of my foes;

But while the battle raged, and wild winds blew,

I heard His voice and perfect peace I knew.

I thank You, Lord, You were too wise to heed

My feeble prayers, and answer as I sought,

since these rich gifts Your bounty has bestowed

Have brought me more than all I asked or thought;

Giver of good, so answer each request

With Your own giving, better than my best.

- Annie Johnson Flint

bes

whenever the idea of you comes to mind,


i don't think much to understand every bit of you.

whenever the subject of you comes to a conversation,

i don't say much to prove i know you better.

whenever the issue of you comes in the way,

i don't explain much to convince a good impression of you.

there are just things best enough left unsaid and unexplained,

because we both know the most important thing...


'you and i'... is more than just the definition of friends and family...

and whatever it is..

i think we simply know.









I don't need deep and fancy words...I've written this six years ago and up until now not a word will be greater..

see you soon :)